Struggle.

If you are up to date with my blog, you might have seen my earlier post about my journey to finding a Church for my ceremony. I called at least 8 Church's, and out of those 8 two were cordial with me, and the rest plain out rude. It has been a long time since I've had to deal with the Church. I went to private school my whole life! Literally. Even College! I am up to date with my sacraments, and can still recite all the different prayers word for word. I pray to God every night, and when I am in need of his help. I try to be a good person, and follow the 10 commandments. I'm not perfect, but I try to be the closest possible.

Which brings me to my current situation. I'm planning to get married by the Church. I need to follow a list of requirements to do so. So far I am having a hard time understanding why the church makes it so hard? Why does a priest have to look down at me as if I am Satan? Am I bad person because I do not go to Church? Can he judge me? Should he be allowed to do so?

I Want to get married by the Church, but I do not want to feel that I am a villain in their eyes. So I've decided to follow some advice from a wise man (My father.) I am going to start attending Sunday mass at our local Church. He said that he will introduce me to the priest, and see what happens beyond that. He said I should give the Church a try. Maybe it will give me a change of heart.

I hope he is right...

I will keep you posted on my latest journey.